had reached the end of himself. He was struggling to make it through each day and was so desperate he began to believe suicide was his only escape.had ascended to the upper echelons of the porn industry, becoming one of its most famous actors. He had achieved fame, money and notoriety — yet he was miserable, weighed down by the shame, pain and chaos that comes with such a role..
He could have taken his own life, but he didn’t. He could have continued in an industry that was literally killing him, but he chose not to. Instead, he turned his pain, anger, confusion and internal chaos over to God — something that shattered his past and led him to true fulfillment. Her life imploded on multiple fronts. Her boyfriend was murdered in front of her, she had to go into hiding, and, like Mr., she reached the end of herself. The pain of her choices could have sent her further down a black hole toward chaos or death.